happy anniversary!

today is our 7th wedding anniversary! and while i can't say that it has all been wedded bliss, i can't imagine another man more suited to my needs than brian. and i can only hope that he feels the same way. this past year has been full of ups and downs. moving back to dallas, living with my mom for 5 weeks, buying a new house, selling our old one, having a baby, and brian changing jobs, all within 5 weeks, has been pretty hard. having my husband work from home has been much different than i thought! it has been so great in some ways- he's been flexible, so helpful, and has bonded with the kids- it has also been a great test to our relationship. i wish i was a better writer so i could convey the feelings flowing through my mind. but the bottom line is that i love my husband. he is everything that i am not. he stretches me. he supports me. he loves me. he takes care of me. he apologizes when he is wrong. he doesn't gloat when he is right.
and right now i miss him! he left today to speak at a youth camp in east texas. so we celebrated our anniversary early- on friday night. my mom was wonderful to come stay with the kids for the night. we went to sundance square in fort worth and had dinner at razzoos after we checked in to the hilton. it was so good since we haven't been there in years!

after dinner i had bought tickets to see an improv comedy group called 4 day weekend. we headed over to the show, and the first 15 minutes was so funny. but then the tide turned, and the subject matter got so perverted and offensive that we couldn't stay. talk about a potential night ruiner. we were so frustrated- last time we went to see the group, it was good (but that was about 8 years ago). when you anticipate something for so long, and then to have it not turn out is hard!

after that, we went to barnes and nobles, and read for a little while, then we were going to go to a late movie, but we couldn't agree on which one (i wanted to see get smart, he wanted to see indiana jones 4). so we ended up just going back to our room and going to bed. (unfortunately, my "monthly friend" decided to come that weekend:() anyways. the next day was better. we slept in, went and had breakfast at a pancake house in fort worth. then we drove around, and were going to go to the omni, but it is closed for remodeling, so we just ended up going to the paint horse gift show (country folk selling their boots, saddles, and other cowboy gear). then we went to the mall and walked around before heading home.

marriage is such an incredible thing. i've heard before that maybe it is for our holiness than our happiness, and although i am happy, i am finding it to be more and more true. i have had to be, and am still, learning about God through the trials of marriage. i tend to be a little dependent on my husband, and while he is pretty dependable, he is human! and i can't trust him with all the areas of my life. God is the only one who can do that. i am still struggling with this one- but as i have friends whose trials are harder than mine, i am struck with thankfulness. that He is faithful to still work with me, even though i am stubborn, a crybaby, and and downright disobedient too. even though most days i am kicking and screaming, i am slowly but surely learning how to navigate this thing called life. with God's help, of course.